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Hello.
Blog blog blog time!
The election is over. To be honest, i am more surprised by the reactions of people than by the results of the election itself. I understand that people have passionate beliefs about certain things, but is it worth getting so upset? It is okay to be disappointed that the candidate you voted for lost, but to call obama hardly a human? Bash him like that? He is the president so support him. And to think that our country will fall apart? yes it will change, but fall apart? i think we are going to be okay. And the tension just makes me sad, why must we say such hateful things to people who have different ideas? I don't understand it.
I saw something on someone's myspace the other day, it was a little bumper sticker that said "democrats, brave enough to kill our unborn children but not brave enough to kill our enemies." Really? is that what bravery is? i think we have got it all wrong sometimes. LOVE. we must LOVE.

Enough about that...
In about 30 minutes i have to give a presentation for my history of math class about myself. We just have to talk about ourselves and where we see ourselves in 5-10 years. the problem is that i have no idea where i see myself in 5 years! I know i want to teach but i am freaked out. I don't really have a 5 year plan or anything. i just want to be a person who is transparent and genuine and loving. I dont want to be rich and i dont want to live in the suburbs. I dont want to be a missionary in another country (which would be really cool), but i want to be me. I want to teach and i want to love kids that arent loved. i want to be that really weird teacher that everyone remembers. i want to be the teacher that kids feel comfortable talking to when they are lonely. And when i am old, i want to be the crazy teacher. And then a crossing guard. the funny part is, i am completely serious. I want to be different from the world, but still relatable. I dont want to be stiff and legalistic, but real and loving. I dont know if i want to get married, it scares me! and raising kids...even scarier. But who knows? i dont want to plan my life out. i dont want to be perfect. I want to live and love.

"You don't have to be anyone else"