Hello Again

It has been a while! So Hello!

Last night was pass the torch. I thought it would be just a silly ceremony but it meant so much to me. Im so glad that we got to hear from this year's team about their advice and their experiences. Everything each person said was something i needed to hear. I am so excited to start this crazy amazing adventure...But I'm also so scared and doubtful. Can i do this? Can we do this? Did they make a mistake in picking me? Who am i that i get to meet all these people this summer? Are they going to like me? Am i cut out for this? Can we bond as team like we should? Do i even have enough love in me to love these kids?  It is a beautiful mix of emotions.

Honestly, we have huge shoes to fill. That scares me but i know that God has control and picked us for this team. I want to give all of me to my teammates and the kids ill meet this summer. 

Let the adventure begin

WHAT?!!

Wow! So early this morning I was kidnapped, in a good way! I am so extremely blessed! I am on the Entourage team 2009-2010! I cant believe it! God is so amazing! After improv night i couldnt picture what the perfect team would look like, then when our blindfolds were removed i knew it was a perfect fit! im so so so excited!  i cant wait for the summer!!!!

Well hello there...

It has been a while. I don't know why I haven't written in a while, but it is time to start again. It is the middle of the third week of school and i can't believe how quick the weeks are going. Life is going by too fast. And after this semester, i have TWO semesters left. Then a degree! That thought scares the crap out of me. Literally, i just pooped my pants. Okay, no i didn't. But I am so scared to grow up. I am scared of taking care of myself without help from my parents. I am scared of leaving vanguard. I have friends all around and i take it for granted. When school is over, i wont have the comfort of walking a few feet to see a friend. I am scared of making my own decisions and possibly making the wrong ones. I don't want to grow up! Could some body please press the slow down button? or does life just go faster from here? i dont want to waste time but i feel like i do a lot! 

Besides those fears lingering in the back of my mind, i have felt a lot of peace lately. it has been nice.

wow

friday was a horrible day. i wrote that depressing blog because i felt so hopeless and frustrated. today is monday and i am completely blown away by God's goodness. He is teaching me so much right now i dont know what to do with it. all i can say looking back on these past few days is wow.

:(

I hate that i make her feel like a burden. I hate that i complain when she asks me to do things. I hate that I still want him. I hate that my dog is dying. I hate that I don't treat God with the respect that I should. I hate that I am so hard on myself. I hate that I am starting off this year with all these complaints.
My dog mandy might have cancer and we will probably have to put her to sleep. I didnt think it would affect me this much. I am so sad.